in other news, today's the seventeenth birthday of one of the coolest people and best basketballers i know. and one with whom i've shared one of the closest friendships...

hahaha NSK to the core. wake me up when september ends, indeed. i need a good slap and kick to wake myself up! 2 more papers, 6 more days. what the finn!

-nat: hello lazy dear! :D POST PROMO PLANS! alliteration

-CP: heh, sorry. who're you? there's only one person i owe explanations to, i think O.O

but life talks back to you sometimes - rudely or otherwise

this day it spoke nicely, but rather too clearly - its not a bad thing :)

and so i came to a realization while reading siddhartha

sometime back (oh gosh, IB! really enters your life)

came to conclusions during time spent doing things i love

chilling on a deck chair in the cool evening breeze, 

jasmine fragrances abound.

then there was BS in the form of colossians 3,

a stark reminder put out by mr allan lee :D to just

always remember that as Christians, its ultimately our responsibility

to always remember too that old sins are more potently lethal

than the new; that they could be more tempting than the new

and so we do away with that which bugs us

put into context: to forget old habits, to look to Christ for guidance

walk on a path appropriating His approval

mind our deeds, thoughts and actions in everything, anything :)

it took me 3 months to set life straight into order... almost

took 3 months to realize how inward-looking i was

took 3 months to realize how gossip destroys only if you let it get to you

took 3 months to learn how to put myself into the shoes of the other

took 3 months to discern how my own silly actions could hurt another

took 3 months to put things into perspective, trust in God

took 3 months to trust heart over mind and matter (think less, feel more)

took 3 months to feel really truly happy for once

took 3 months to truly recognize that sense of happy balance in time spent tgt 

took 3 months to realize 3 months was way too long - all the time wasted

took 3 months to really grow up and be somewhat more mature

took 3 months to learn its between you God and tt only one who's special

took 3 months to take a good guess at exactly what we're looking for :)

fun discomfort awkward silence pain sheepish smile fun future

i miss _

its nearly october. what the chickens! ): still,

its 2:34 AM and i'll go off for QT - leaving:

proverbs 3:3 "Let love and faithfulness never leave you;

bind them around your neck, write them

on the tablet of your heart."

:)

what an unproductive day. save for girl-squeal-gossip with moe mya dear-darli + rachel koh at starbucks today, and massive heart-to-heart talk w petrina and zhuo'er. alena calling me to talk life after fireAc meeting and plan our post-promos date :) beyond that?

presenting, a chemical disaster. not to mention very wet socks and trudging through two inches of water. stinky shoes and socks lying around exam hall (i kid) A SERIES OF POWER FAILURES! :D venthan+runima mouthing "hi jayne" in the middle of the papers. amusement in the form of a bubbling fountain of mud water from a drain O.O

brad pitt and his jolie are in town! (and shiloh... and MADDOX!) for F1 grand prix, but can't watch because... ALL FIRED UP FOR BIOLOGY. AHAHA.

dude and dudettes, this is THE life! the IB life :)

chemistry may be "in the air" (quoting rekha)

but its definitely not in my head ):

physically exothermic :/ literally

too much mugging in 5 hours

need break before beginning biology + math

pre-english

post-english, pre-econs

post-econs

9 october, coppelia ballet at esplanade with alena. can't wait :D

youtube loves = taylor swift's love story, david archuleta's crush!

/edit. 

dying for economics. head = saturate. me = giving up and going to get myself a mommy-massage now haha. something wrong w my shoulder blade muscles ):

PROOF I NEED CHINESE TUITION:

tim: oh i did Q1 (for CL B paper 2)

me: huh!? Q2's like the easiest one!?

tim: no Q1 quite easy what!

me: NO!? what on earth is 骨痛热症 ... BONE FEVER?

tim: NO! DENGUE FEVER.

AMANDA I AM GOING FOR TWEE-SHUN W YOU AND KWAN. OR I DIE.

*you should go get some sleep right now...* :P

/edit.

CHINESE TOMORROW. I STARDEE ANYTHING BUTT.

that sums up my sunday :D

less than a week to go. 

can't wait for all of it to be over - benumbed, and not feeling any tension/stress whatsoever :/ but then it also means the first year of IB is near over. but then again. it also means our first BB girls en-masse gathering/party of sorts - IB's given me this, among many others. its like 2 giant electromagnets (hard to separate, ever) haha beat that love!

plus the others i miss from here and there...

and so, post-promos? it means getting back together with, and enjoying ultimately, the company of those select bunch who really matter to me; those whom i honestly love and wouldn't pass up the friendships for anything else :) finally.

felicia and i had a damn unproductive mugging session today:

but it was worth it.

mugging with natalie tmr, hope it works out this time! hahaha photobooth saves failed mugging on wed indeedy :) life good to the core.

just plucked out again, the poem alena offloaded onto me so long ago, around the time i made the choice to switch over to IB from HC? the one that if ever "you miss me, then go read!", the one that i read during down-time over again, and which brought a willing smile - 

the thousandth man, by rudyard kipling :)

One man in a thousand, Solomon says,
Will stick more close than a brother.
And it's worth while seeking him half your days
If you find him before the other.
Nine nundred and ninety-nine depend
On what the world sees in you,
But the Thousandth man will stand your friend
With the whole round world agin you.

'Tis neither promise nor prayer nor show
Will settle the finding for 'ee.
Nine hundred and ninety-nine of 'em go
By your looks, or your acts, or your glory.
But if he finds you and you find him.
The rest of the world don't matter;
For the Thousandth Man will sink or swim
With you in any water.

You can use his purse with no more talk
Than he uses yours for his spendings,
And laugh and meet in your daily walk
As though there had been no lendings.
Nine hundred and ninety-nine of 'em call
For silver and gold in their dealings;
But the Thousandth Man h's worth 'em all,
Because you can show him your feelings.

His wrong's your wrong, and his right's your right,
In season or out of season.
Stand up and back it in all men's sight --
With that for your only reason!
Nine hundred and ninety-nine can't bide
The shame or mocking or laughter,
But the Thousandth Man will stand by your side
To the gallows-foot -- and after!

disclaimer: i am not bingeing my life away and fats up on those round pieces of pastry with sweet sweet custard/lotus paste/durian/something? fillings!

again, time flies, and beulah is back tomorrow after ages (no, not contradictory, just sayin' :P) i/we/5.14 miss that girl to bits hahaha she gives our class such crazy spunk and added spice and laughter, with all the random outbursts of emotion or... reluctant submissions to teases/insistent tones of self-defence :D back from america tomorrow, that girl!

pre-promos: study. school. eat (!) talk laugh and play. promos: go on study/talk/eat/enjoy life mode. post-promos: krazeeeeee :D gosh there're just so many things to do after, don't know where the fun begins anymore. first day off from exams? ... support felicia perhaps, even go back to school on music HL day, see how the girl's doing :)

someone told me the other day, astoundedly. about how little similarities/willingness to share about each other's lives, sometimes brings together different people in wondrous ways. and there're parallels too sometimes, however subtle. still wonder about personal things sometimes, but recent events have made me less worried; on the contrary, feeling much better and somewhat contented. almost, just that little dash away to the finish line.

promos. they've got me thinking where all that i treasure will go, after IB is over? :/ weeks of blood sweat and tears, this time next year, for us all. then the tidal wave of exam papers, each labelled with IBDP in english, spanish and french titles. come the end: hurrah lets play, then the wait. boys go to NS, girls wait for the big U postings - - what next? O.O

makes you want to be the little girl holding a string-handful of colourful balloons at her sixth birthday party, all pink dress white stockings (sounds like miss julie :P) and staring innocently at the orange-yellow squirrel pinata... all over again. less worries, the biggest issue on mind would be something like - "where am i gonna find a replacement for swan lake barbie's left ballet-heel?" ):

when did i stop playing with those bimp-bo long haired things? (definitely more than 10 years)

simple sweet sixteen and counting. three months and two days to sexier seventeen :) perceptions. tok - cause and effect - argh. lost?

shoutouts:

feli: *wink* told ya already! xoxo dear you the big(ger) bomb!

kim: WHAT WOULD CHEM BE WITHOUT YOU!! ):

suann: stockings fiesta! let's try post-promos! :D:D

in "memoriam" of the past 2 years:

you silly woman i haven't heard from you in like such an ass long time and suddenly you just pop up like that not fun ahahaha but yeah okay i hear promos end in about 30 plus days well then you better make sure i get to see you like uhm within 1 week of the end of our promos, just to let you know mine ends 6 october so free up now now now now now! :) and yeah you've been ponning almost every hwachong event i know to date so get your bum in again soon maybe i can see all of you together! for now, study hard/well i pray for you haha God bless I HEART YOU STILL :') come to barker with me one day hahaha if you can even manage it church exco woman! :) the fantastic four bimbo/little women clique need to meet up QUICK O.O

yours truly,

either IB has made me go loony, campbell+reece has made me go haywire, or i just suddenly find myself missing the besties from yesteryear awww :')

and people, do keep the 9-11 victims and families in prayer today awrightz

ah i know i know. get off blogger already! O.O

but saw today's "quote" from the christian calendar that 

lynette gave me last year (aw girl, dont think you'll see this)

but just wanted to share it w whoever passes by :)

"A Prayer: Give me work to do; give me health;

Give me joy in simple things. Give me an eye for beauty,

A tongue for truth, A heart that loves,

A mind that reasons, a sympathy that understands."

hahah the "work to do" part? that one can 

stay the way it is now :P

back to drawing retarded economics graphs,

market failure condemnation?

mmm, life. aggghhhh :P

shout-outs -

manda: kitty, kitty, kitty :)

yiwei: oh gosh -.- but yeh anyway, it doesn't uhmm.. cause *them* i would know :P

ben: icks you. sick = icks = (k)icks. okay nvm!

today was a slew of running around, trying to meet old friends at HCJC

failed ): and had family feast and perth photo-exchanging

been unable to focus on work very much, falling asleep and sidetracked.

dayam. twenty-two. no its not just the number that i have to (repeatedly) tell the cab drivers when going home. that my friends, is the magic number that should etch into your mind today, minus one per day gone past. because thats all we have left to the promo exams.

feels weird calling them promos because its not likely to happen! seriously. tried studying today but wound up doing everything else but. got home from an oddly high lunch @ holland today, plus a spot of grocery shopping for pop-tarts and odd blondies packets (?) - - - and did nothing but talk to various people on the phone, entertain tiffany who came over, and oh finally tidied up a room that -

mom: JAYNEEEEEEE... YOUR ROOM LOOKS LIKE KATRINA RIPPED THROUGH IT A MILLION TIMES!!!! *increase decibels please*

yes, first Econs HL guidebook of the year is sitting next to me and i have no idea how/why any of this info is going into my head ): ahwell. post-perth syndrome! which was fantastic btw, there was lots of PEEGEENG! i swear i put on ten kilos! =x

imagine this: a load of bus tours, desert visits, desert wild rides, a day of chocolate+wine + fruit groves+orchards + restaurants+sweet snacks, MSN and cyber-cafes by night... oh plus IOP and chinese exam papers. and texting and stoning in the wintry air, breathing it all in and wanting nothing to stop :)

flying to perth alone was fun, albeit slightly annoying. girl ferried me to immigrations, had another pick me up direct when i went through check-in and told me "you can't stop to shop - straight to the gate." D: she ordered a buggy thing for me (!) and everywhere i went she went, even the loo O.O boarded first, alighted last. AND THE PEOPLE IN PERTH WOULDN'T LET ME GO UNTIL THEY SPOKE TO HALF MY FAMILY ):

yah my family left without me thanks. well they left on the morning of retreat day 1, so!

oh yes, got back home last night at 11PM, visited blogs. saw manda's facebook profile picture/her blog picture-roll. and felicia's blogpost too... what a tear awww haha :') lurvf you guys! (girls)

shane's card is left half-unwritten before me. shall let the guys fill some parts in tmrw. ohwell. chem today was alright, was stoning and couldn't absorb 99.9% of what big george said ): IOP was pretty alright, was quite -.- cos of technical glitches.

can't believe the year is passing by so fast? its september! soon: halloween, birthday, Christmas (CANT WAIT) and all the little treasures in between :) really wanna do well for this exam so i can enjoy the hols (i hope) with the rest of them.

cheers to a good term 4 ahead people! :D

shout-outs:

manda: well, my favorite bimp! lunch w you tdy was good, and for gossakes! WHO'S CARRYING WHOSE BABY! -.- grrr... shuddap

yiwei: haha valentino? :P yeah yeah i got you BB people stuff of course! and FINE LA. THANK YOU BALLS FOR GIVING BALL(S) OF A TIME, PRE-RETREAT :D there! HAHAHA.