ahhh HSM 2 was sweet; watched re-runs of it from recordings over the weekend in my absence. am becoming a TV Pig, watched ep 7 of grey's anatomy season 4 too - most of it watched on youtube already anyway. AND YES. everything about sharpay evans removed about half my brain cells within a few minutes into her first appearance

so yes, thats a peek into post-camp life... coy camp oh-eight was awesome stuff; another 2 sleepless nights (HAHA explains my bummer 13 hour sleep today) in a row (mostly the first) and all the fun activities. very very fun. and amongst all those, some moments to remember:

1a. tim liang and zhuo'er hooking it up together for 6 hours in the peace of ROM

1b. tim liang bullying zhuoey (!!!) before setting off for ROM - unspeakable TL words

2. sleepless night #1 - woken up after 1 hour by a loud BANG. opened one dreary eye to see ben sim sitting baby-style on floor, on top of... "OUCH! ... ben is that the table top you're sitting on?!?!" and looked to the right - sides of the table splintered apart mercilessly and ungloriously spread across the IAN floor

(yes some part of the table hit me; and yes, it collapsed when ben stood on it)

3. momentarily chased out of squad room when those kiddies thought i was a serial molester (?!?!) just cos i whacked elliott's butt for "i'm trying to catwalk like [you]!!"

ps. i insist i don't; not gonna let anyone (try to) prove it by video-ing either =X

4a. "yes, elliott you look like her. just grow out your hair longer." - mr allan lee

4b. elliott borrowed my body lotion, so... "you don't just look like her, you smell like her now too." - tim toh

4c. i insist otherwise on the "twins" claim; BLECH! HAHA

5. doing the jives with jeremiah hadi (YEAR ONES!!!) while trying to get paint off the tracks

6. first day freedom when waiting for race to end - zipped off to holland to frolick (yoghurt) and run feli's *er* errand :P met sam there, chose dars' swensens'. sam and i shared coffee bean linguini; russ told us he and dars saw us (without cake) running around in holland - "what were you and j doing there?!?" ... sam and i agreed it was the best mad thing we'd done together

7. pet's suggestion we lay out ACROSS the corridor on second night, leading to a lot of "OY!", "what the?!?!" in the morning :} HEHEH. fat manatees and blobbery jellyfish "road-blocks"

8. this may sound cliche, but worship was really rousing... esp second night; reminded me of LDC last night worship :)

okay there're like a load of unglam pictures on facebook - including one of getting dunked dunked dunked during wargames... one with pet staring w a HUGE naughty grin on her face, redefines "xiu shou pang guan" GRRR :P but LOVELOVE lurrvvvvliessss, awesome camp!

Corinthians' final chalet coming soon, sponsored by sir and madam :) gosh our class = partying hahahaha but yeah plans are still underway, we need to decide on some place really chill. maybe like even have an extra new year's eve-eve event. our possibly FINAL celebration as the Corinthians before Joppa sets in. hopefully it won't be the last party despite the hard toughness of the Joppa year :/

tues - oly + visit french cousins back from new delhi! :D

wed - oly + dean's + romancing the ice on skates w 5.6 girls

thurs - oly + study date w nat?

fri - oly + major halloween party at aunt sheila's

as can be inferred - OLY daily. can't rmb when dean's classes are... BUT YEAH. premonition to my sad life this hols, pretty moody over my complete loss of social life for 2 months in nov/dec but i guess research should turn out pretty interesting... i hope! GOSH. whoa life really is sad!

need to psyche self into starting work ASAP, really. paying a visit to the bookstore/kinokuniya tonight! :) like right after dinner now... WHEEDLEDEE. maybe i could find paddy clark ha ha ha HAHAHA what kind of title is that!

-ym: AHHH OKAY I'LL MSG YOU :) not november, unless you wanna meet at night. oh rats. that leaves this week! TOMORROW? (okay i really text you now LOL)

-BMR: whoooooo...? do i wanna know wha-? o.O

but then.

its just not worth it seriously... why worry when you can be glad?

irritating is the wrong word. caging is more like it !@#$%^&*~ oh, cancer?

less sunshine; figuratively in the halls, in the corridors

God's holding me up pretty well;

got many things figured out with Him on Sunday

a Seventh Day when i woke up at 1, QT for hours 

and hours and hours and hours... :P

felt so amazingly free for a day and a few hours, 

still feeling free. happier than ages, or so i thought RAH i guess

forgetting is never easy. (you'd think it'd be easy)

but EASIER said than done. shouldn't be this difficult

but oh yes it is and going to school doesn't really help

so i just open my journal and rmbr what God told me :)

it's like living on a bread of sustenance

i miss doing carefree things like cycling - wind in your hair,

rushing full speed unleashed down pathways of parks

flying past the happy little children, the cute old grannies.

(not to mention losing quite many calories and fats and whatnot

undesirable, INFERIOR GOODS ahahaha) :D

everyone has analogies. mom's analogy - EE and le guys :P

"they're like your EE drafts. when it can't satisfy,

when it can't fulfill your 'requirements', when it can't answer the 'question',

when your 'mentor' think its a hopeless case, 

when you can't get the 'materials' you need for it to work,

you throw it away away all awayyyy... wait patiently and search for a 'new one'

delete the 'old files', and painstaking efforts and much patience 

and detailed 'research' later, getting to know the 'topic' better

you get your '4000 words' and a happy ending: the 'grade A'

and jump up and down for joy onstage,

provided you've managed to handle 'the rest of your schoolwork' well :P

HAHAHA I LOVE MOMMY :)

-yingming: i've never forgotten your broad shoulder to lean on throughout our high school years together! :) i lurff euu can we meet up soon call me pls! i give you mother bear hug ahhh

-BMR: oh... lol thanks! err... do i know you?

and chances are because you don't know to keep it there,

it falls back down again - i skipped QT for two days already! ): 

all because of IB but okay no that's bad anyway no excuse ROAR

results yesterday. would have spent yesterday mulling over it and

i dont know, some form of self reflection.

instead wound up at a dinner party until late late late ): no chance

today was all a flurry of events and everything - no time no time

knocked out after BB, just got up (8 PM!)

"incredible ian", "zealous zoe", "calbee caleb", "super stan"

"spartan sling", "bubbly bloke", "marvelous mong", "jumping jellyfish jayne"

had a real interesting dream!

the kind you won't forget, the annoying moment you wake up

:)

ahhhh oh no i seem to be a mirror 

of what other people are experiencing;

woke up w a horrendous sore throat and temperature this morning

("imma 2 hot 2 handle, sam!" :P) decided against mooching at home

but spent the day looking, feeling and being a dead, rotting log anyway

TEEHEEHEE okay now hope feli and i both get better, asdfghjkl!

you know you're a little off key, 

when you draw jellyfish on your drill 2 paper...

when you and a friend (penguin) conspire to throw a velcro-ball at elliott's hair, 

wondering if it sticks (sorry!)...

when you link random things to scientific knowledge/facts...

when the word buckyballs pops up in your head; no apparent reason...

when you think you can do 4 IAs, ToK presentation and EE research in 3 days

HEHEH. nat thinks im delirious cos i tried going near an iguana today

like 30 cm away,  "hi iguana" "who!?!? what are you talking to!?"

:P

today at 0830 i finally got a hint of how badly i did for chemistry, and well. it wasn't how the big v felt that really got me down, i think. it was me thinking how mom would probably be really disappointed with me (for me, disappointment owns anger's ass anytime). how i'm really disappointed with myself too, how shocked friends like kim and amanda were when they heard about it. 

but well most of all i feel like i really let God down because we're always supposed to do the best we can for Him, to His glory... but i'd be lying if i said i did. because i know i wasn't. the night before chemistry i distinctly remember freaking out after a killer headache; was feeling so crappy i couldn't study for 3 hours plus. and distracted myself - at 11 PM i was barely done with kinetics :/

easy to say going to australia left me in the happy-holiday mood so i didn't study well after. but i know thats not true either, there's so much more i could have done anyways ): i guess that explains what happened to me in school today, twice. just suddenly stopped not thinking and boom once, boom twice. but what's the point of saying "could have"?

got home (at 7 PM following an extremely lengthy comm*** practice) and sat down w God after a refreshing hot shower. read the conviction from yesterday over again - "seek first His kingdom and His righteousness"... and somewhere in my QT scribblings - "do not be complacent, for anything could happen. but seek God always, TRUST in Him"

that really came to me, felt so thankful. and read Luke 12:1-34, ending in that wonderful phrase at verse 34 that says "for where your treasure is there your heart will be also". earlier on - "treasure" being the place we have with our dear Lord in Heaven. i think that really helped me find some equilibrium - some sense of knowing where and what i should (have and) be focusing on

had a good long talk with zhuo'er, between mrs lui's talk and command practice - how she found God's strength through failure, and reminded me again of something i read recently... reminding us of how success makes us proud sometimes, and so God gives us failure not to break us but to make us humble and stronger so yeah. i think what i know what to do now, what i should be :)

and well thanks to zoey for talking and telling me all those jokes to cheer me up, nat for all her "it's gonna be okay, everything's fine, trust in God kay!", mari and beu for the hugs and comfort so typical of us 5.14 girls, and talking on the toilet floor as well LOL :) toh the 'silent' one hanging around and then being all jokey-witty as usual, russ repeating himself with a million "dunno if you'll appreciate this, but exams aren't everything", karlo for being karlo, luke and ben sim reminding me of God's purpose for us in life, TL for being nicer than his usual "you bitch" -.-

natalie and i are SO GOING TO MUG TOGETHER DURING THE HOLIDAYS. FOR EVERYTHING, SWEAR :) like many many nighttime hardcore stardee dates after i finish my murderous 10 hour sessions at temasek ugh!

hi concentration camp, boot camp, Nazi camp, here i come :)

song that came to me during QT - You are my All in all:

You are my strength when I am weak

You are the treasure that I seek

You are my All in all

Seeking you as a precious jewel

Lord, to give up I'd be a fool

You are my all in all

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame

Rising up again I bless Your name

You are my all in all

When I fall down You pick me up

When I am dry You fill my cup

You are my All in all

Jesus, Lamb of God

Worthy is Your name (x2)

no seriously ): i know its a new thing (HAHAH SATS ESSAY...

VERY SCREWED SATS ESSAY RATHER)

... its not an improvement (to ACS) but er. yeah ):

okay happy note: balloons for the kiddies at the hospital,

am going to try twisting some into weird clownish shapes :)

and somehow, get ToKeeIA, coy camp stuff, bio oly work doneeee

ROAR.

happy note 2: so amused by the p6 photos in our nyps yearbook!

(less amused by a bunch of ppl across non-intact and intact seeing "it")

but amusing overall, nevertheless. what laughs today :)

some of us just looked squashed last time - now pulled out like teh tarik

AHAHA WEIRD ANALOGY. some of us "elvira-stoneface"-ish,

RAHAHA :P i see a whole bunch of ppl in that book,

like dumped them 4 years ago, meet them 4 years later (ie. now)

in teh "hallowed halls of ACS"

don't know whats wrong with me today? :/

sugar highs, christmas carols? bonkers

woke up with a splitting headache, sore throat and fever ): definitely from the intensity of sleep deprivation and shuttling from one post-exam thing to the next. eeks. but what transpired before today makes it all worth it. so here's how, to the simple life:

brunch at halia in botanic gardens just now - so that meant walking down the hill walk walk walk hot sun parasol umbrellas! hot hot hot. and lots of things along the way! saw a bright green snake outside no. 15; it wasn't alive i think cos mom poked at it w 3 branches but it didn't budge. bright red eyes (!) and poison green skin/scales. it just looked so... serene

and walked along some more - saw a dead squirrel by the roadside outside no. 5. and spotted its partner or something sitting in a tree near it; it made lots of noise when i approached so i walked off again... walking back two hours later, well it was still there, so was its partner. watching us with suspicious black bright eyes gosh it was really endearing. though yeah sad ): poor thing - and i think the dead one had cardiac arrest or sthg, cos it wasn't run over

that much was clear.

young spanish spinach salad and open-faced omelette, cinnamon french toast w honeycomb butter and glazed strawberries for brunch! :) yummy. except i'm not eating anything for the rest of today i swear.. engaging in retail therapy in a moment! and besides, walking up the hill and down, well it helped me sweat out the fever. throat feels somewhat ohkay. 

and thats the simple life - i love being so in touch with nature :) like walking along the park's paths and stopping to breathe in the fragrance of frangipanis, examine the huge clumps of lush green moss along the slopes :) ahaha okay shut it jc

AHHHH. i feel better now, going to town soon to pick up  a new mobile, finally :) one conked, one is a cancer-causing machine (extra, more so than other phones), one is a china phone given to me last year (it has radio and internet!), one's got a bad back cos my maid dropped it on the floor from a nasty height. lol

so anyhows, wednesday - girls sleepover. awesome, haven't spoken to those girls for ages - and we wound up just sitting in the water for 4 hours talking and talking... :) its great for us 5 to get close and bond so well all over again. and just spend all that time talking, EATING!, lazing around, watching step up 1 ahhh

blueprint next day, uncle arthur brought rich down w him from australia and to dinner... went to downtown east later on for class chalet. wine wine wine vodka bailey's bacardi. major vodka! hahah i kept to my promise, touched nothing :) i'm fine w it really, abstinence exercises amazing self discipline. besides i'd have to answer to some people if i did touch. and how can you go to a christian camp the next day hungover anyhows? i'm off that ... shunky (LOL random word)

christian fellowship + FireAC jumbo mambo combo retreat! was teh awesome :D i feel muchly on fire again after agesssss gosh it feels so good to want to do something for the school ministry again :) worship was amazing - everyone just crescendoed throughout and well, really felt God and also in like how i found all these amazing verses which really spoke to the situation at hand, and personally as well :) ezekiel 2-3, and later on 1 peter 3:8-12, 4:7-19

praying and walking around the astroturf on vigil, in the middle of the night - awesome awesome :D and the prayer walk before that as well, with teh other girls zhuoey pet nicole carren tina - just wandering around from class to class :) and praying for people in each class... discovered so many things about so many people :/ and :) oh well just like the theme said - making a difference! hope i'll stay on fire to stay with that lol!

shall spend the next few days recovering from all that's been going on so far. in other things, life's pretty good :) found myself randomly wondering how ophelia is doing in duke university. how we could have moved on from the little kids shouting "i dont friend you..." in kindergarten, to the angsty 13-year-olds worrying about weight, to the sobered-up 16/17 year-olds still worrying about weight, but also about IB now and everything. how people have moved away :/

-kim:  IEE STILL LURBZXXZ EUU TOo! :) do you miss v-squirt!? i don't! and ben made a bad joke abt me at retreat yst ):

-carren: december twin! HAHAHA retreating with you was teh awesome! :) like how singing with you *cough* at start of year on a certain *coughcough* monday. *COUGH*

-sharon: let manda and i know when your exams are over!! ahahaha yeah girl LOVE YOU TOO and stay funkyyy! lol :)

celine dion has a breathtaking voice :) and nat was right HEHEH again the last few scenes got us all sniffly and sad. rose dawson as an old lady is somehow quite cute, i love how the story's a recollection told from start to end. and somehow the old lady scenes stuck in my head since the last time i watched it... which was when it came out i think :P oh and dug up the soundtrack in one of the drawers

we randomly watched the titanic trailer... and suddenly boom it ended with -

*screen flashes 19 DECEMBER*

manda nat and i: O.O *pause* HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

oh well going out today was therapeutic. started with waking up late and zipping off to school in LIKE, WOW! and pe shorts. actually, no, make that running down to the nearest bus stop, missing bus 165 and boarded *i can't rmb the bus number* to holland. thinking i could transfer but NO! because i couldn't figure which bus from then on, and i didn't bring enough coins! (EZ-link died)

no taxis on that road where the stop was so... RAN IN THE SEMI-HEAVY RAIN down this road to the main road and stood there in the RAIN trying to get a cab. illegal roadside flagging - got one anyway, shiver shiver cold ): and $4.90!?! rawr! had to get nat to pay $$ for me first

met one half of the friends i was supposed to see in school O.O drama drama. nat and i left, then TITANIC! post-movie shopping around in town - bought nothing, saw alot, GOSSIPED some. new MNG collections are teh love! :) went to check out potential new phones, after manda and nat left. i can't function w samsung phones lol :/ iPhone overused, sorry... HEHEH.

SUSHI TEI :D gosh chawanmushi, dobinmushi ("teapot soup"), california maki, ebi tempura, roe sushi, eel sushi, ocha (how do you spell the word for japanese green tea) and pino icecream. i am SOOOOO going running tmrw when picking up the BB girls at serene centre, oh and for grocery shopping at cold storage in the morning. AHAHAHA NO i'm not going to run up the hill with grocery bags - just down.

yesterday was interesting i feel certainly somewhat better now, post-"vomit" *not literally, Heavens, no* :D first time with the P5s (i keep nearly saying Year 5s!) and gosh they're almost as naughty! but it's kinda sweet and well... they're still kids right? who knows what we were like as ten/eleven year olds anyway... little devils? :P

girl 1: i'm lazy, i don't wanna do this anymore! :(

girl 2: yeah *looks at me with huge eyes* i've already done two comprehensions, and the first part of this passage

me: just a little more to go :P just finish it up, can go home

girl 1: eh but i've done the third part of the passage already!!

girl 1 & 2: WHY DON'T YOU DO THE SECOND PART FOR US?!

turns out class chalet is a possibility for me now, back to aranda country club after like... a few weeks since primers retreat :) gosh more ice cream, more WoW-type talks and class fun HEHEH corinthians are cool people. and yeah quoting chris foo, we don't need technology to make a fun stayover

someone: we're gonna enjoy whatever time we have left now as the Cool Corinthians before we become what, Joppa-ns next year?

:D :D SERIOUSLY. what do you call the people of Joppa?!?! yuckz i dont like :( 6.14 joppa. its so weird being y6 seniors; its not just having EE and TOK (shiz tok! presentation! taylor! D: oh no) on your head 24/7. its also... just having Y5 people around, where you were just the year ago

was it us? in january, scared apprehensive faces (or otherwise), some of us in a foreign new environment (us girls) and wondering just what the random eagle statues were for :P or like THE RANDOM FIND SOMEONE WITH THE SAME SHOE BRAND game hahah. the justin timberlake mass dance, the breakdance perf, the running around esplanade bay with wigs and whatnot... OG FOUR :) meeting our OGLs, kyle koh and jaime tai (old NY girl :D) evelyn thangaraj trying to get me to join Primers, start-of-school drama-rama, the then-ability to keep up w gossip w old friends/classmates :P seeing CX jump into the pond, losing my phone at chapel (and finding it 2 hours later) ...

and since then... O.O

i think all of us, every last one of us has come a long way, a long long journey through the first year of IB. it seems all so long ago, yet also so near :/ waking up some days back then thinking, oh gosh hope there's no physics prac today, then remembering "what oh yeah ACS silly, you only stayed faithful to bio and chem"

in physics lab practical last year:

mr boonie: so jayne are you taking physics next year?

j: *drops the metal "pendulum" ball accidentally with a embarrassingly loud clang* NO SIR PHYSICS IS KILLING ME!

mr boonie: .............

so next year! i would offer to be an OGL maybe, if time allows it. if time doesn't remove my entire social life from me this holiday, unfortunately it does! ARGH ):

i ramble at night. an exceedingly long entry, far too long for my liking. but late night entries usually mean a blab of everything in my head. HEH. especially at this witching indecent hour 1:11 AM? hmmm.

all the best felicia tan shu xian! 

its almost

(for us, it was two days ago :P)

-passerby: hi who are you? :)

-jet: -.- FAIL.

-yingming: ILYT! :) :) HAHA YOU HAVE LONG HAIR NOW. okay i miss you loads too call me lets meet up soon before you sell your life to HC council and i sell my life to IB completely! SILLY WOMAN DIDN'T COME FOR CLASS GATHERING HMMM? >( haha.

-sharon: I SAW YOUR BLOG I SAW YOUR BLOG. you taitai on a one degree fifteen yacht hahah :D teehee how fitting, just watched titanic! all the best dear, YOU CAN OWN CALGARY'S ASS YOU KNOW IT :D

primarily, math paper 2, which occupied no large part of my mind until

3 hours ago. and began panicking a little - couldn't do simple matrices

roar! so happy after detention tmrw, after that super lousy ending to a paper

6 hours sitting and "you look at me, i look at you" with mr whatshisname

nat and i are planning on grey's anatomy, and chatting... BOARD GAMES?

ahahaha :) we are tards, cool tards

so another sunday came and went. today's communion service was...

least to say, GOOD. worship was awesome too,

and well i really missed not going to barker for 3 weeks

(wasn't allowed to, ugh)

it was reviving, something refreshing after so long

i feel fired up again to do stuff, especially after thinking about 

lots of 

things

last night for a rather long time

4:30 AM 

no wonder i'm like a zombie today :/

missing mooncakes. although one contains 800 calories and upwards,

so i guess its all "for your own good" :D

but awww, what about all the durian. all the lotus paste, the chocolate

weird tart things, the flaky skins, the snowskins. mmm :)

evening walks! missed that today too, wound up practicing minimal math

at the club, sipping away on hot chocolate :) met mom's old old patients

said hi and chatted about school life. was random, but kind of fun

to just talk to people you've never known before

first swim after ages yesterday. after a 2 hour nap. after ...

getting back home from our class reunion :) i miss those folks

shorter hair, plumper cheeks, skinnier frames (HAH)

new uniforms, new inside jokes they shared

Pinks - new relationships! ahaha naughty

my little "so anyone wants to stay in Year Fi- oops. JC 1...?"

slip of the tongue, "foreign environment" :P

seems everything's changing but the friendships,

and the class' love for island creamery scoops :)

i miss nuh kids ): rayyannnnn 

after all is said and done -

mon HEHEH. :D

tues chilling, sun + pool fun w manda, nat?

wed potential BB girls sleepover!

thurs class chalet @ aranda (!) + but then, russian ballet w alena!

fri fireAC + CF retreat (INVITATIONS)

the remaining days before jet and i sell our lives 

forcibly? to microbiology

and long long days in labs and stuff. yes,

these remaining, waning days in october - imma planning to enjoy

w the girls to the 

MAXIMUM :D

-jet:  -.- refer to your tagboard, silly billy.

-tim: +.+ rawr! be that really you, lol! MATH MATH O.O

its over its over its over its over... OVER! well, sorta.

who really counts math ass-ell, seriously? :D

thats all. no more oligopolistic curves and $$ issues

no more krebs cycles with odd molecules sticking out here, there

no more... metal ions no more *eeks i've forgotten chem content*

its also FOUR-TEN DAY

i miss my old class ): twenty chill girls.

the nerdy periodic table trend of the class

us four of the fantastic 4 clique sitting in the middle

"those four transit between good and evil."

:D :D :D

and horrible, only the Pinks and me tmrw

out of our lovely four.

alena's not coming anymore ): 

silly girl, that!

le french couzzies :D

grad ceremony...? we bored.

ahahaha i've lost a ton of cheek baby fat!

the fantastic four minus joey

baby augustus!

europe trip dec 07 friends!

15 year old kendrick pimping 5 girls? :P

chloe ken tiffany me jen jae :D

okay i miss people.

i love biology. i love biology i love... i love shopping more :)

at the beginning of the year, i chose math hl

in february i had enough of he whose initials code for the amino acid valine

(that proves i've studied sickle cell anaemia btw)

i wrote a letter to ms chock

telling her about my woes and incapabilities in math hl

(okay sort of) and as much as the little bear 5.5 gave us girls on v-day

as much as i loved that class (sans mugger bit :P)

well now i have desmond yap for math sl

but he's a cool teacher so well

if not for the D-mon (and feli amanda kim chloe in class as well

oh karlo haha) i'd be dropping 

right 

now 

to...

pft! vectors ): 

5 random things about me! -

#1 my back cracks really loudly when i twist around

#2 egg yolk makes me gag - any flavor of yogurt doesn't

#3 will never forget walking around as cleopatra when i went to egypt 9 years ago

#4 if not for IB exams, i'd be floating on the pool and gazing up at the night sky right now

#5 having a pink sulfur-crested cockatoo would be very cool :) ... but noisy.

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another random tidbit to cheer le muggers up, too funny: