one year on, and i wonder if that kind of joy is replicated in finishing EE TOK IA (x100000) WL IOC and all that IB ever proffers? but all i know is finishing up the last bio topic (immunity) before The Test tmrw is some kind of happiness enough :) silly way to measure happiness, but then...

this is the 221st post since the birth of this blog those many days ago! maybe i'll change its skin in march? HMM. lubchu, world (skool)!

my

gawd.

i came home happily after school, sat down in the kitchen (or plopped down in a blue, white and black mass) malu saunters along and asks me to try her new dish - it's some mass of white meat that resembles chicken. and she claims that it is CHICKEN. so i ask for 3 more pieces and woffle the stuff down :)

. . .

then she comes over, sits down and -

malu: how is it?

me: great, great... is this for dinner? i want some more :)

malu: okay! *gets some more*

me: *eats some* are you sure this is chicken?

malu: yaaaa what else can it be??

by this time, i can sure as HECK tell its not the poor little bird i've been feeding on for most of my life. and my suspicions are growing way faster than my appetite is. so i ask again, she says no its chicken. i furrow my brows and say that i'm not talking to her again if i find out its not chicken.

and so she revealed it to me -

the LEGS of that THING.

NEARLY DIED. I HAVE A STRICT SELF POLICY AGAINST EATING EXOTIC OR NEAR-EXOTIC ANIMALS. and i almost went bulimic and wanted to get the stuff out of my system. i'm sorry, i REALLY don't like anything that can hop around - be it, grasshoppers, RABBITS (how can you eat something you've reared as a PET??!? D:) and most of all, the Croak-Croak!!! 

i'm never trusting any food on my plate until i know for sure what it is...

i won't make a very good guinea pig for escargot, urchins, horse/rabbit meat, esoteric China dishes, FRIED INSECTS (!)

basically, i'm no inquisitive anything-i-will-eat little kid. or Irish ten-year-old boy ;)

baey yg: eh jayne you scare me you know... like there's so much work to do but somehow you always manage to look so carefree

to put this in context, i'd been charging around like a mad cow trying to get my potatoes in cold water before the browning reaction had the chance to kick ass (much to paul cheong's amusement... and rena's irritation). SO:

me: !?!??!?!?! *incredulous look peels across face*

by the way, rena completely adores me, up to the point that last week she went:

oops.

and looking at my homework list now, thinking back to that thing abt today:

- EE RESEARCH (exploring new scopes to do Discussion)

- KING LEAR (extract 12 - and track down my absent IOC partner)

- BIO IA 23 and 24 PLUS REDO IA 20 (academic honesty, COUGH)

- TOK DRAFT TWO (!)

- TOK OP TOPIC (!!)

- CORRECTIONS FOR COMMENTARY, CHEM QUIZZES, MATH TEST

(by the way, math was a disaster since i studied zero, and chem was... BAD. like kim + ben + my marks couldn't even reach full score. how disgusting is that :/ yuckz)

- WORLD LIT ESSAY DRAFT 1

- STARDEE FOR BIO + CHEM TESTS (WK 8), ECONS + ENG STRAND 2 (WK 7)

for the first time in my 2 years, and possibly in my 12 years as a student in uniform, in this sunny little happy island, 

I

FEEL

SUPER 

SUPER

AGH. i want a hug ):

it always used to be me either being the youngest among the teens at a party/dinner, or somewhere in the middle. become 17/18 suddenly and you're considered amongst the old, or the very old, the ancient teens now. i feel it... here's how.

final CNY dinner of the year yesterday (i'd sincerely hope so, since i'm not controlling my diet at home either) :D so no Inkheart ): completely forgot about it till one hour before when aunty rachael rang us up! gee. anyway - every other teen there was younger, so most of the night was a "second NUH":

talking abt IB and how everyone should dunk education altogether, to the sec2s who were hopelessly eager to get into JC quickly (!!), listening to a sec1 complain about how "BOYS ARE STUPID AND A REDUNDANT OBJECT." (she's a girl of course. LOL) and how she'd "rather be in where i am now (cedar girls') than a mixed school like in primary sch (rosyth)" hah i took the liberty to remind her she'd think otherwise in abt 3-4 years' time, at most

realized much later on that lemuel and his mom were at the party too! that's where i suddenly felt like a kid again, cos this time it was me listening to him wax on about university graduation, how getting finance degrees sucked during the recession now, and "private banking in 5 years time". GOSH :/ and then of course, how the cruise in dec suddenly felt like AGES ago? all the late nights w us 8 girls lounging around and the... random extra (pimp). HAHA good times

there was a spider in the car yest on the way to aunty r's. BLAIRDEE HAYL the thing was on the DASHBOARD i was okay at first cos it was on mom's side. it was a baby - but at least 6 cm across nevertheless, legs included of course :/ ANYWAY. then it began crawling over to my side... and next to me on the passenger window!!!!!! so for the first time in my life i experienced the 'paralyzed by fear' sensation: like i just started screaming and shrieking but completely couldn't move. twas only when mom pulled up by the kerb, that i began scrambling onto the driver's seat and she went round to my side, opened the door and knocked the little critter off.

overly-dramatic to the normal person, maybe. but real... i think mom really wants to send me for psychiatric treatment to get rid of my spidey phobia, heh. anyways i swear its spidey breeding season and i'm getting neurotic abt wherever i move in the house! O.O heck, i wasnt convinced it was out of the car yest, and tried to get this 9-yr-old kid at the party to find it for me and kill it. cos he went: "ahhh, so big? SO FUN! i want!" OH MY GOSH. little boys...

i miss going to barker ):

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just chanced upon an old correspondence... a really really old one.

you never know how much you're missing a dear friend do you? 

until you stop denying it yourself. pooey

in a strange way, the song feli and i've been mercilessly hopelessly stuck on for a few days' running now:

i really do miss us talking ):

the weeks promise to draggggg. although that number in my diary is ever dwindling and its kind of scary how its moving seemingly so fast? two seven five today! oh no

ah well, last of the CNY celebrations yesterday, at uncle richard fan's. turns out his nephew's adwyn chong so yep, the classic O.O, pause, and ... "hello!" and am still vaguely amused at the k story abt kenrick and i? ze moms were telling us how we were supposed to be born within the same week but i came out wayyyy earlier than feb so now he's the significantly younger one AHAHAH its like pseudo-(failed)-twin. bit mortifying to have us know after 17 years? and ken was like the first Y5 i saw today! ooer. i've convinced him to take my subject combo ;)

k's mom: hey jayne last time i saw you, it was in utero!! (-.-)

and then there was the classic sec 1 RI boy, fresh out of pri school and absolutely girl-phobic. "i will never, EVER have a girlfriend! i don't like girls, so fussy, so talkative, always need so much attention, presents, and if you ignore them, you GG already..." O.O I SWEAR. of course we girls defended ourselves and went: "trust us, you won't be saying this 4 years down the road." 

best part was when he said: "don't need girls la, so troublesome. i'd rather have a dog!" all in good humor, nobody took offence at that, of course :P and he kept spewing out random trivia, the kind that the typical bookwormish pri sch kid would know. "china's last emperor ended his days as a soup hawker!" ... ?!?!?!?! geemeenee

pygie on sat was owning, and so was supper at B&J's after that. hadn't spoken to aunty pat for ages, really sort of missed chatting w her :)

fat fat fat!!!! pon math class, do EE. went for cold-rock and coffee bean w nat, ATE CARAMEL MUD CAKE flavor plus COOKIE DOUGH and FUDGE toppings. went to giant to buy EE materials half an hour ago, and picked up PULUT HITAM and TEH TARIK ice cream on the way back. NIAN GAO, YAM CAKE and PANADERIA CHEESECAKE for breakfast tomorrow.

CRAP. when is height and weight? i need to find a way to bamboozle tim ng out of it...