i don't really know how to spell it out. but i really don't like how stuff feels right now, how mom got pretty darn pissed for the first time this year. i won't say it wasn't my fault at all, and trying to put myself in her shoes, i admit i'd be pretty worried if my own daughter didnt respond to texts till a tad later, and forgot to say she'd be back much later than she said she would

all i can think of that is: back home late + smelling smokey + sugar high = over-thinking on mom's part. well i mean, it was a CHURCH event for goodness' sake, and after that the four of us went to newton (explaining the smokey smell) for supper, ate chendol + bur bur cha-cha (sugar high)... i know what mom's thinking abt/of me, i know she doesn't really believe i was out with nat and her clsms - and i really don't like it. so all i can do right now is cross my fingers and hope she cools down soon ): till then, i don't think i'm allowed out for quite a while now

karlo once asked me how can i always be so cheery and happy, how much it takes before i can get really down or moody or anything. heh i'm def not always smiling, but well... i guess this is how much it takes D: just want this feeling of "-.-" and "i'd rather be in school now" to go away

still though, gotta be grateful that just maybe it's lightening up a bit since mom brought home a slice of my fav coffee bean cheesecake for post-dinner dessert. and well, last night BEFORE all the coming-home drama happened... that was awesome, truly truly had a great time. first time ever in a new creation church service. on top of that: a CNY celebratory service :) worship was great, and i absolutely LOVED the worship music and the play - being all written by their own members. saw pastor prince in person for the first time! :D

service... quite an eye-opener being in a Charismatic service for the first time, realizing everyone else in there could speak in tongues O.O i cant exactly formulate a solid opinion on it, but while i'm not exactly used to a so-called "non-conservative" Christian environment, i've nothing against it either - i think mostly because the love for God is certainly still there :) really would like to talk to someone abt this soon though! interesting...

and it was a great opportunity to get into the heart of worship and focus on God for that period of time once again, after a long time :) for all of that being in a church service and all, i'm just really glad nat asked me to go, actually!

before that was a trip to the Lab (failed attempt at collecting jet's and my Dec salaries), and national library w nat and ginny. it was really quite funny, nat sifting thru philo books, me tapping away while referring to books on weevils, GINNY CHARLES sitting there drifting off to sleep and lazily murmuring that she didnt want to do any TOK/EE as she'd initially intended

and today... learnt a thing or two abt God after merv found me thinking abt stuff on accident :/ met feli for lunch then JL+JR chanced upon us and lunch turned into a cracking convo abt the randomest nonsense LOL. nuh was owning seriously, it was just mark feli and i, but we found these two kids who wanted to play monopoly... AMAZING game seriously, one i'll remember for life

there was this really bright kid who was incredibly deft at buying properties and soon amassed seven castles (the largest property attainable) on the board, "if anyone ever asks you what the 7 wonders of the world are, show them ur picture!" (yes i took a photo of the board). how he kept going in cahoots w his friend (nicknamed "businessman") to cheat feli and i of $$, but also how he gave us cash "for free' sometimes :P 

how his friend kept having to pay feli cos she bought a million properties and each time he'd sigh and feli said oh, silent exasperation. but one point he landed on her Jungle Book property for the 147128947th time and he went: THE DAMN BOOK!!! lol just cracked us up seriously. and also like i kept landing on the first kid's castle properties, all along the most expensive stretch of the board btw. so lost the game w a $5500 debt to the bank D: there was a point where i had "one dollar to your name... nobody can get as poor as you." - feli

that girl kept landing exactly in between the castles and the kid was DYING to see her land on his properties HAHAHA :) he looked so gleeful when she finally did! gosh... so yep, quite a memorable day and something i'll remember. it really did cheer me up a fair bit, and for now, remembering all of that and putting it here for memory's sake ;)

hmmm forgot to mention that i nearly lost my phone yest cos i dropped in the cab and didnt realize when we got off at newton :/ till 10 min after we got there and by then the cabbie was on his way to tampines! so we waited for him till about 12.40 and i'm now $20 extra poorer ): panicked like !@#$%~ i'm SO dead if i lost my phone seriously so blessed and thankful that we didnt hail a cab off the road cos then i wouldn't be able to trace him back

there's always something to thank Him for :') just gotta remember to put some sunshine into my face for the coming CNY celebrations - visitations, and reunion dinner tmrw. just wish lil matthieu and co were back home now instead of in new delhi? ): AH WELL!