i know this is a public blog but its also a diary of sorts. so if you're in a good mood, i'd really recommend elsewhere right now, before anything else.
SO.
there's that analogy: apple pie baking nicely in the oven over time. people smell it, it's like a lure and so they walk over in droves and decide for themselves "wow, yummy!" and dive right in for the kill. so the thing ends up kind of eaten away, crumbs or maybe none at all left behind. not to say that it's only crumbs now (good heavens!), but the knife has cut a clean edge to it anyway. .... and one'd wish it were back in the oven. its not impossible: there are days when you'd rather be invisible so nobody would notice anything, so they'd have nothing to conjure for fun of it and perhaps for once and for all, just "shut the moo up". it's like that game where people pass a message down the row, and the end person gets something so far different from the beginning and you're like WTFH. its so stupid really. and if i thought last year was ****, this year's something else altogether. lousy start to the new year indeed. punching bag please?! here's to wondering if "normal" is ever possible. stupid tok. but well, maintain that resolve to hold your head high and sail through school, through classes being okay, looking on the brighter side of life/keep thinking grass on your side is greener. and remember waking up each morning is about "yay", not "****" am vaguely aware of sounding like some spoilt whiny brat right now.
:) smile, you! and yeah man
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALENA
love you girl, and always will!
Jay/cee. ♥ is HAPPEE 18TH BEEDEH ALENA WAN WEN XUAN! ily =)) says: (12:04:01 AM)
so old, woman!
[alena.] - & grace has overwhelmed my brokenness; says: (12:04:07 AM)
yeah i realise too! sniff.
Jay/cee. ♥ is HAPPEE 18TH BEEDEH ALENA WAN WEN XUAN! ily =)) says: (12:04:13 AM)
nevermind
Jay/cee. ♥ is HAPPEE 18TH BEEDEH ALENA WAN WEN XUAN! ily =)) says: (12:04:18 AM)
you get to drink and drive
okay back to stupid written comm for o'connor :/ "if i don't get it by assembly tomorrow morning HANDWRITTEN, i'm marking you down" (i typed it and it was due today)
this is dem blardee pissing ): excuse the language, but peeved is the least word to use. at least there's dinner-dessert-date w alena and her church friends today/tmrw night to look fw to.
it's high time i turned back to QT again, it's like a discotheque strobe light right now. on-off on-off bangbangboomboom and i shan't live w a daily guilt of not having the daily bread okay joke not funny lol D:
