well then, it's the end. this is it, our last day [yesterday] plenty of good memories, days that we'll never ever forget, memories of our times together as youths. but yup, this is the last of it (at least for now i think) and it's strange to be so morose about it but it really provided the best of times, of memories, of relationship-bondings in many ways, amidst the IB storms
anyhows, yesterday was the last of camp, and the night before was all... "nah let's just stay this way" but AHWELL it was the best ever camp i've ever had along w LDC 08, and though the ending sombred us up quite a fair bit after all the high's, i frankly have to appreciate it alot because now i've found some footing QT-wise again :)
mostly about how i didnt feel worth enough/couldnt bring myself to sit there w the ppl i've worked most closely with and pray for th Y5s just yet bc my own QT life's been below zero for the most part this year (yes being honest there) and the "come sit down" looks on their faces was a little much, personally... just made me feel really guilty and all. so i went out w BaaBaa (my SHEEP pillow's initials are BB!) and tried to pray properly for the first time in ages. still felt wonked and didnt wanna go back up to Primers Room until they were done. but two or three good chats later about life and the Y5s later, i realized a few things ;) and i'm glad for it yeah
sidenote: mom ignored my calls until almost 8plus! ): heh but yeah anyway what this camp gave me: live footsie, talking to the y5s during their worship prac, getting to know those gorgeous y5 girls (quite "on", and really cute/funny), random chats and catching up w diff ppl, showers at wee hours of the night, BEST HORLICKS EVER :D, catching up w our y7s, 3 hours of intensive running around - touch rug, jogs arnd school, gym-my stuff later, roaming school at 3am, getting half-hour of sleep (too cold, no sleeping bag), getting bitten by mozzies until 5.30 when i gave up and got up, buying 80 packs of nasi lemak (20 of which were redundant!!!!), more time w Y5s, SUPERLOTSOF PRECIOUS TIME @ the west coast jetty w Pet having great girl chats (we went a little crazy), scarped my foot a little (!) on the rocks, reading King Lear under a bridge, cute dogs, the last hour together... LOVE :)))
sidenote #2: feli and i found half-clothed squash guys in our girls toilet. i dunno who was more disturbed? and for most part of 2nd day, the back of my skull was throbbing like crazy from the full-speed-on shoulder-head collision during touch ): i swear my brain shifted hahahaha. oh yes, and weird moment where Pet laughed at the sight of me sitting next to "F*** off" written under the bridge, and when the guys saw it later... and someone's "there's a troll under the bridge!" GROSS who was it SO MEAN ):
ahwell uni fair today saw so many people from IB... and now pet and i are making our future plans AHAHAHAHA :D alsuwaigh and lewina are in the Prospectus! omgoodness D:
current favourite song: broken strings by james morrison :) bittersweet lyrics, great song
